Recently (because I’m ill lol), I realized most of my bouts of illness are strongly linked with me overworking myself. I work two jobs; an office job 45 hours weekly as well as a side business. Before six months I’ve taken 5 sick days, and all are strongly linked with intervals where I slept little and worked a whole lot because I thought doing this would ‘get me ahead’ or ya know, that sort of bullshit. In hindsight I realize the truth is that sleeping less and taking less time for myself only results inside it taking longer to accomplish what I was doing: an unrested always busy brain isn’t proficient at dialing in focus, so everything takes longer. I’m accomplishing more while it’s happening. How do i avoid this feast or famine mindset? I have a tendency to either go all out and burn myself out, becoming ill, OR I really do nothing.
I can’t appear to look for a healthy balance and I don’t appear with an innate knowledge of just how much I ‘should’ do per day. • Reach work 8am, work until 5:30pm. Shove lunch in my own face while looking at my computer, or sometimes not really eat lunch and grab a slice of pizza to consume around the train along the way home. • Decide ‘oh shit I have to relax! My problem appears to be I just have no idea when to call it quits. I understand I have to setup real defined hours for while i focus on my side business, but I cannot appear to decide what they’re or just how much is ‘reasonable’ v insane. I’ve started going for a large amount of my day job work house with me, and I have to stop but I have no idea how. I’ve set working hours before for my business, but inevitably I’ll break them ‘just this once’ or ‘well this won’t count because this project arrives tomorrow’ blah blah. Needless to say, the only real reason I must break them because ‘oh that is due tomorrow’ is due to the complete ‘feast of famine’ mindset. I’ll have a very deadline a couple weeks out, then do nothing onto it for weeks because I ‘need to relax’ when it approaches, I work non stop for days until I’m stressed beyond belief.
So. TO CREATE. And Build.
So. Faith in GOD, THE FATHER Above. And Wondering if His Tap Upon Your Skull Will Wake You up Tomorrow. With or Without Dreams, Why don’t we Be Apart of a difficult Hardened Team. A Movie, a Film, a Poem, a Song, AS WELL AS YOUR Personal Invest Thus Puzzle Called Life. The Light Beyond The Vibrating Beams. ‘Remember, Always Give YOUR VERY BEST. Never Get Discouraged. Never Be Petty. REMEMBER, Others May Hate You. But THOSE THAT Hate You Don’t Win IF YOU DON’T Hate Them. AND You Destroy Yourself’. So. TO CREATE. And Build. And Build. And Build. TOGETHER WITH YOUR CORE. ALL OF THE Notes You Passed in Class. In Secret, Attempting to Impress That Amazing Child. Now Beyond Education. AND EVERYTHING is certainly going Great Until! The Dreaded MAN OR WOMAN WHO Really wants to Watch You Fall And in Embarrasment Watch You Destroy All your Life And ALL YOU Worked SO DIFFICULT For.
Like an awful, Terrible Snake inside the Tallest Grass. They AWAIT a blunder. Anything. Anything to carry Onto. Point is, Who Doesn’t Make Mistakes? Seriously, Who Hasn’t Made a minumum of one? ‘Testing Oneself is most beneficial When Done Alone’. So. Create a Maze. Whether it be Reading Material. Audio. Visual. Set an objective to Achieve. FOR INSTANCE, DON’T ALLOW Yourself Anything to Drink AND SOON YOU Succeed over a Mission You Show Yourself. Perhaps Pay attention to a complete Album And After Your First Listen , Write a Poem. AND EVEN Several. And when Those Poems Create Inspiration to keep Listening or Writing. Consider A Goal Achieved. A Birth of Sorts. Small, But ESSENTIAL Sense of Creativity. AND PERHAPS Even Show Someone EVERYTHING YOU Made AND OBTAIN Feedback For Improvement. And Yes, Maybe A good Compliment. Now Get yourself a Drink! ‘While I Take Inspiration From DAYS GONE BY, LIKE THE MAJORITY OF Americans, I Live FOR ANY Future’. So. IT’S BEEN Said, Reside in AS SOON AS.